the girl who wants to do everything || thought of the day

 I think there's a point in growing up where everything around you starts to change size.
The things that used to be big and all-consuming get smaller; your school, your sports team, your hometown, your home friends.

The things that used to be small and figured-out now seem inexplicable and endless; your world, your possibilities, your plan, your life.





When I went home from my first semester of college to see a ballet performance (the one I'd performed in and obsessed over for years) I couldn't get over how small everything felt. Not in a bad way-- it was still amazing. But it felt a whole lot smaller than I remembered, and I'm not just talking about the stage size. I think this is because my brain has opened up, and the ballet part doesn't completely fill it anymore. There's some empty space leftover now, and instead of just one thing, it's filling up with world. With possibilities. With stuff I don't know about yet, and stuff I want to do.

Maybe you're at the changing-size part of your life, too. You look around and see a thousand huge things and a thousand little things happening within each other. It probably all seems terribly exciting, and you probably have this antsy urge inside of you to just do it all. You're probably plagued with a constant (and frustrating) sense of inspiration, while at the same time kinda wanting to stay in bed until noon everyday (it's too comfy).

And, if you're anything like me, it's not the sort of idle dreaming you did when you were younger. This is stuff you want to do now. There are sixteen-year-olds on the internet doing it now, and people in your college doing it now, and you desperately want to join the club of now-doers. They seem so cool, don't they? They seem to grasp the world a little bit stronger than other people, right? You could do that. You're pretty good at metaphorical grasping. So why are you still in bed?


Well girl, I feel the same. I feel like I'm constantly filling up with inspiration and things I want to do, but I never feel like I'm quite doing them. And none of them seem concrete enough to pin down and smush into one pretty, packaged thing. For the first time ever I don't know how to answer the question "what do you want to do?" because I want to do so many things. I try to pin it down and plan it out (because I love doing that) but I also know it's not gonna happen the way I plan.

Anyways, this was just a "thought of the day" type of post, where I try to dump my thoughts and feelings in the most eloquent way possible. Expect a follow up post on a similar topic within the next week. Let me know how you've dealt with being young and inspired and confused, or if you're in a similar situation!

♡Julia

42 comments

  1. What a great post! I completely agree, when I visit a place I used to go when I was younger it seems so much different. In a good way of course =o) We are constantly changing =o)

    http://dreamofadventures.blogspot.com/

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    1. I so agree-- weird, isn't it? Thanks for reading!

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  2. I also feel this way sometimes. I feel like someone's life is faster than mine even though we're in the same age. However, I always encourage myself that my time will come. At least, we're changing in a good way and that's nice. Grow and blossom, as I always say to my blog readers and people who need that advice. Hehe! :)

    Augustin Ra / Indie Spirit

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    1. I love that, Augustin! And I definitely agree. Thanks for that comment!

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  3. How do you manage to always post posts that get me thinking/reassessing life? Haha! Loved this though, everyday I always try to do too much, and there's always more that I want to be doing and trying, but I think this is good... better to be wanting to do things rather than having nothing to strive for right?

    Elle
    www.theellenextdoor.com
    xx

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    1. I'm the same way, Elle! And ahah thanks.

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  4. I loved this post, I often feel like everything is sweeping by and I'm just not living in the 'now' enough, I've recently started stepping back into the world again and being part of the bigger picture and it feels great.

    Rosy | Sparkles of Light Blog
    My Instagram | Instagram

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    1. Aw I'm so glad! That's definitely something I'm trying to do also. Thanks for reading!

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  5. I can very much relate to your situation, I always this feeling of restless because they are so many opportunities, so many things I want to do. And then I feel overwhelmed with choices and just keep things the way they are. I really want to change that this year, I finally want to join a society at my uni and I want to learn how to play the guitar. I think it's best to make concrete plans for when you're doing what - that apparently increases the likelihood of doing something, at least according to my social psych lecturer xx

    113thingstosay.com

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    1. yeah, I bet that's true! I wish you the best with joining a society and learning guitar! And I definitely do the same thing-- overwhelmed by all the opportunities so nothing seems to change. But we can do it :) Thanks for reading, girl!

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  6. I can relate to this post...thanks for sharing!

    http://www.myclusterofthoughts.com/

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  7. I've been in this similar situation, Julia, and it was just last year. The world seemed so big and I didn't know where I belonged. Thankfully, some light were shed on me and now, I'm slowly learning how to take things one by one. You'll soon get to where you want to be. Just keep moving forward :) xx

    www.itsrenalexis.com

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    1. That's very reassuring, Renee :) Thanks so much for your kind comment.

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  8. I am old enough to be your mum so I don't think I am the right person to comment on this but...I think it's normal for anyone your age to go through this phase. You'll eventually grow out of it, well when you're ancient like me. ;-)

    Shireen | Reflection of Sanity

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    1. Bahahah thank you Shireen :) Nice to hear your perspective. Thanks for reading as always!

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  9. Oh my! It's like you took a look in my brain! So relatable! Im 23 and I think this way a bunch of times, it always feels like other people are 'further in life'.. We'll get through it though. Just a fase (I keep telling myself) Just a fase!
    WritingMonique

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    1. I'm glad you can relate! And yeah, I always feel like people are passing me by in life. But everybody has their own timeline to getting where they want to go. Thanks for reading!

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  10. I love this post!!
    xx
    Mónica Sors
    MES VOYAGES À PARIS
    NEW POST: WELCOME 2017!

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  11. I've never thought about life in such a size-changing way, but it makes complete sense. I relate to this so much, ugh. I want to do so many things, but sometimes I feel like I'm just doing nothing. I honestly think that's just life though? I think it's normal.

    Amber | y a c h t s m a a n

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    1. Yeah that's exactly how I feel and I think you're exactly right. I bet everybody goes through this somehow and sometime. Kinda annoying though, isn't it?

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  12. I totally know what you mean, I am trying to do a million things at once all of the time
    xo
    www.laurajaneatelier.com

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  13. I know how you feel but don't be afraid to get back in there!

    Tina
    www.justatinabit.com

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  14. I loved this - I honestly thought it was just me having these thoughts! I constantly feel as though my ideas and dreams are growing beyond the capacity of where I live, and it's equal parts scary/exciting. Here's to hoping 2017 brings both of us more clarity and the ability to act on our inspirations, even if they feel abstract just now.

    - katrina || yourstrulykatrina.com

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    1. Beautifully written, Katrina! I often feel that way also-- like bigger and better things are happening other places. Yeah let's make 2017 the best! Thanks for reading :)

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  15. You have the world at your fingertips! Don't forget that. :) In the meantime, sending good vibes that this feeling stops being overwhelming and begins to empower you!

    -Ashley
    Le Stylo Rouge

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  16. Love these kinds of posts :) we're always changing and growing, and sharing these thoughts is so therapeutic! Helps to know we're not alone in our journey of growth and self discovery!


    xx, Amy
    http://www.theluxilook.com

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    1. I agree, and it's fun to write them :)) Yeah we're totally not alone! Thanks so much for reading.

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  17. I think many of us have gone or are going through this type of phase. I have felt, and sometimes still feel, like I have so many ideas, dreams, ambitions but don't know how to make them into reality. All we have to do is try and start doing something in order to achieve what we want :)

    -Leta | The Nerdy Me

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    1. Very true, Leta. Thanks so much for your perspective and thanks for reading :)

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  18. I totally understand you girl! Take it from an old fart like me (I'm 30) and as I've gotten older perspectives really do change. When we are younger we are kind of selfish and in our own world, but as life happens we start to see the bigger picture and it really can be a shock when you finally actually see everything!

    Stacey + thebambieyes.com

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    1. Haha thanks so much, Stacey! I definitely appreciate your perspective. :)

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  19. The post is great! I really love your blog:)

    irinathayer.com

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  20. I am exactly like this, I want to do so many things and then get super overwhelmed. Thanks for this post girl!

    Camila,
    My Vogue Style | www.myvoguestyle.com

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    1. I'm glad I'm not alone! Thanks for reading :)

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  21. I totally relate to that, you're not alone ;)
    Nati xx

    www.simplyartdicted.com

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    1. Nice to know :) Thanks for reading, Nati

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