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Life updates & thoughts on reinventing yourself

So, it's been a minute since I've blogged.

Or a week. Or three.

My break happened for a number of reasons: 1.) I went to England with my family for a week (!) 2.) I was too caught up in planning my blog rather than actually blogging 3.) I've been very occupied with my own thoughts and realizations and the changes that have been occuring in my own life, and I didn't really feel like sitting down to blog.

Oh well. We all have those days (weeks), right?

But now that I'm back, I wanted to write an old school julia in bluhm post (you know, the talk-y, essay-y, philosophical kind) about change and reinvention.

a few polaroids from the summer



If you follow me on Instagram (you should!) you may know that I dyed my hair black. Yes, black. And  you know what's crazier? It was an accident... I was trying to dye it red. (Don't ask me how that happened). Anyways, 24 hours of crying and a trip to England later, I rather like my new hair. It makes me feel less mousy-brown and washed out and more something. And also I like its newness.

Another big change is that I'm not really dancing at all this summer. (For those of you who don't know, I'm a ballet major in college and most dancers take classes all summer in order to stay in shape). I started the summer thinking that I'd take some classes here and there as it worked with my schedule, but this week I just decided na. It's not worth it. It causes me too much stress and distracts from the time I want to spend doing the things that make me feel proud of myself. I'm going to be going back to dancing in the fall, so I might as well spend this time (now that I have time) doing the stuff I've never had time to do: writing, photography, learning new things, going on picnics, exploring. I only have about a month left of summer, after all.

Now back to the hair.

Since I've returned from England and have been debuting my new appearance, I've gotten several comments about it. Most of them are in the ballpark of "it looks so good!" or "it looks so different!" or "I didn't even recognize you!." But one that kinda stuck with me was someone saying, "wowww, you're really reinventing yourself."

Reinventing myself? I know it was meant as a compliment, but it kinda made me think.

People always assume you're going through some quarter-life crisis when you dye or chop off your hair (am I?). I guess because that's the most drastic change someone can make about their appearance apart from, like, plastic surgery. But often times, in my head at least, reinventing yourself seems like a cliche. It's the cliche of a college girl, after a break up or after traveling abroad, comes home with a tattoo and black hair and a new wardrobe. I guess that's kind of what I am, minus the tattoo and the breakup. And if anyone who sees me is quietly rolling their eyes because I am the biggest cliche, fine. It's not my first time.

But that cliche is also flawed because it assumes two things: 1.) that your reinvention/ change is just a fad and is ingenuine, and 2.) that it is a rare and sudden occasion.

I happen to disagree with these things. I think that everyone changes all the time and whether it's for some deep philosophical reason or some flippant stylish reason, it's still a valid change because they're still a valid person. And it's never a rare or sudden thing, because change occurs constantly and consistently, in different sizes, all the time. Maybe the hair dye makes it more visible and adds a sort of "I have changed!" landmark, but that's all.



And I think it's important to point out that it's not just college girls who go through "reinventing yourself" periods; it's everyone, in tons of ways, tons of times throughout their life. And I don't think it's anything to be amused at or roll your eyes at or celebrate or freak out over. It's just life.

So yes, I've changed, and things have changed, and they will continue to for ever and ever. (I am julia in bluhm, after all 🙃). And I like thinking and writing about it all because it helps me stay sane, so I think need to get back to blogging and regain my sanity. ;)

Let me what's been up in your life! Any changes? Any hair adventures?
♡ Julia





7 comments

  1. I really like the new look! I'm totally about to follow your insta as well. I am intentionally semi-reinventing myself. I'm trying to get a new wardrobe together, I suppose it's more like how I always wanted to dress but actually doing it successfully. Maybe being more adventurous in general? It's hard to figure oneself out at times. Anyway, I'm glad you're back on the scene! X

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    1. I love that! It definitely is hard to figure oneself out at times, but it's also very satisfying to feel like you're being more adventurous and dressing "more successfully." Very well put, I feel like I'm experiencing a similar change!

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  2. I've been thinking about coloring my hair red, but now you have me scared, girl!

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    1. Hahha don't be scared, just make sure you've got the right dye or show your stylist a photo so there's no miscommunication. :)

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  3. I don't think I ever saw pictures of you on the blog before now... you are adorable!! I love the new hair, even if it was an accident! I have no hair adventures to share because my hair is naturally jet black and I'm terrified of messing it up! So many horror stories. But I hope you enjoyed your weeks off!! I'll be sure to friend you on Insta! Look out for @kimbvo :)

    Kim
    Simply Lovebirds

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    1. Aw thank you so much, Kim! Just added you back on insta :)

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  4. Okay. Yes. Relatable with the hair. I change my hair all the time when I'm stressed or need a change. It's the funnest. People know.

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